Modified from my #MetaDemon caption…
We made it, lost power for a bit this morning. The two clocks in the room show different times so I think it was a fee times and a few flickers. I woke up when I think the microwave was beeping as the power was going in and out.
As of 10 AM ET Fri Sept 27 the hotel hasn’t been covered. We need $498 immediately and another $700 by Tuesday; that’s 4 Days from now, we have no food or gas funds, no funds for my #EmotionalSupportBunny to have food.
By the way EBT (food stamps) only really helps with frozen dinners that leave me weak and sick or other things and I’ve been too weak and shakey to heat anything up without scaring Mom. The bit of food I’ve been hoarding is still mostly there but part of it was spoiled when I was trying to make something yesterday since it’s been in the fridge for a month without me being well enough to prep anything.
Having breaks from meltdowns from myself or Mom when trying to make food is another reason why we need funds aside from just the hotel. It’s extremely essential for my mental health and physical safety as Mom does get violent when she’s terrified – I don’t talk about it because I shouldn’t have to but a lot of me knows that socials only care for drama and trauma porn. Let’s rack up the engagement ya’ll.
There’s been a trend even before these past two weeks of no contributions, that when the hotel is covered we get dropped – no more help, no more “urgency.” Before I thought I was paranoid but my partner noticed as well. Yesterday wasn’t covered, they didn’t say anything, today isn’t either.
I’m not Sure what’s going to happen come 11 AM.
We need ongoing support – had that support come in before the eviction I would still have some means of income on my own.
I could somewhat count on even a #Twitch payout ($49 something) every few months from ads just from streaming with 1-3 viewers, about 60 views on my VODs and the 1 or 2 subs I had. I could expect weekly tips on my #RadioFreeFedi streams, #commisions (1 which has been left undone).
I could have maybe has sales from my 4th Album that had to be stalled… Maybe something would have come from several plans for art designs and merch designs I had planned, potential growth on my #podcast #music and #vlogs #YouTube channel…
But here we are steps away from the best I can give to the world being extinguished for good – my small business that I’ve been building since Nov 2015 is dead in the water. People say they love my art and my music – it’s nice because before having to exposure therapy myself through self promo I had pretty much no audience.
I’m thankful to have anyone receive my creations at all. Despite that it feels painful that I’m treated as something to be consumed instead of cherished.