I am ocean
Drowning in confusion, pain and despair
Constantly vigilant of when my next betrayal lies creeping in the shadows
I don’t believe that I belong here
Or anywhere
Why should I trust to be cared for or wanted in anyway, big or small
When reality sets in, it hurts my spirit
I want to run
I want to hide
I’m not worth finding
Fading into darkness is probably the best
Constantly fooled by toxic hope
Should have known better
I don’t really matter
Foolishly
I burden the universe with my presence
Thinking someday, someone would befriend me
Not out of pity but out of love
I am ocean
Rise, fall, chaos that consumes
A sea of tears