Many moons ago I set up this website, oh wow my own domain and everything run on my own server with a magical virtual machine that has Linux and can host this ethereal branch of my soul that you’re visiting right now on the interwebs. So the VM set up was way over my head […]
I have lost a friendship recently, actually a few in the last year or so. I’m struggling with self isolation while I’m in dire need of support. I have severe trust issues. I don’t know what real intimacy should be or could be. With that I see the thoughts and ideas around “validation” and it
Twenty four years ago my father blamed me for his marriage falling apart. Let me warn you now, this post comes with heavy content warnings of abuse (all types), poverty, war, maybe suicidal ideation and sexual abuse, proceed with caution. A week ago my brain was so swollen I felt my guts churning into a
Almost 6 hours into my 40th trip around the sun 05:50 ET. I was born some time early in the morning on a Tuesday. Yesterday, on the last day of my 39th trip around the sun, I wrote a song contemplating everything that has molded me into who I am, all the years I was
Even as I saw this day coming months ago I feel like everything has changed in the last 24 hrs and I feel lost.
