She screams – inundated with toxinsStill I feel uselessShe cries for safety drowning in yesterdayStill I double over to the liesShe burns and churns longing for peace I’m still pushingYou’re not tryingYou’re patheticYou’re worthlessYou’re clinging to a pillow for nothing She can’t breatheShe can’t feelShe can’t moveShe’s leaving us all You’re selfishYou’re manipulativeYou’re conning them […]
This afternoon after accidentally sleeping 10 hours (with a 5-15 minute break to feed my bunny and check on Mom) I soon came to realize that I’ve lost huge chunks of time in my memory recently and honestly this has been happening for months probably since November, maybe even longer. I woke up to a
It was July 2015, unsure of what day exactly, I woke up in immense pain so severe I couldn’t even roll my body over to try to push myself out of bed. I grew up with subluxations in many joints of my body, sometimes almost everyday. I called off work, put my shoulder back in
I have lost a friendship recently, actually a few in the last year or so. I’m struggling with self isolation while I’m in dire need of support. I have severe trust issues. I don’t know what real intimacy should be or could be. With that I see the thoughts and ideas around “validation” and it
Sometimes I hate getting reminded of why I have trust issues. I hate getting reminded of why I wrote songs like “Magic” and “Ride or Die” and “i.h.y.” Sometimes I remember I have faced so much betrayal that when my new therapist is shocked that I tried therapy again so soon and she asks “why”
