Many moons ago I set up this website, oh wow my own domain and everything run on my own server with a magical virtual machine that has Linux and can host this ethereal branch of my soul that you’re visiting right now on the interwebs. So the VM set up was way over my head […]
Twenty four years ago my father blamed me for his marriage falling apart. Let me warn you now, this post comes with heavy content warnings of abuse (all types), poverty, war, maybe suicidal ideation and sexual abuse, proceed with caution. A week ago my brain was so swollen I felt my guts churning into a
It’s 07.13.25 – I wrote this on 01.20.24 and it never got published idk why… We’re all on a journey, many of us have battle scars that seem to reopen easily, some of us never stopped bleeding but we find ways to numb the pain I’m fighting for self love Not just to grow
This calendar year has been a roller-coaster, I feel like I keep saying that everywhere. The highs and lows have been unexpected and exhausting but I believe I feel a little bit of peace for now. Within minutes yesterday morning I went from trying to share my feelings of shame, confusion and grief to a
High pain levels, more bullying and struggling to sleep less than 12 hrs a day, my usual need is 6.5 hrs, the day started off slow until I heard we had some dangerous weather settling in. It’s 19:07 ET and it seems the danger has passed. Per usual, I also continually get unsolicited advice instead
