I lost my soul and my mother 4 yrs ago today. Dalilah was brave, gentle, elegant and sweet. Before I met her I thought the only thing I could bring into the universe was pain, suffering and toxicity; that’s what I was made to believe with the childhood I had. I adopted her May 4, […]
Four Years Missing You… Read More »
Many moons ago I set up this website, oh wow my own domain and everything run on my own server with a magical virtual machine that has Linux and can host this ethereal branch of my soul that you’re visiting right now on the interwebs. So the VM set up was way over my head
This blog started from a comment on a post a friend made on the Meta Demon… One of my strengths is that I never try to prove anything to my abusers. I just go no contact, more on this later. My greatest failure is that I have to prove it (the abuse) to myself again
I feel like I will never stop trying to explain how deeply self advocacy hurts me. I try to add euphemisms since social media, like the rest of society, criminalizes mental health but ESPECIALLY suicidality at all levels. Whether it’s a gnawing, daily, aching feeling, a stray idea when pain gets heavy, a contemplation because
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No turning back One moment could all the Cares of the essence out n About here in there and then Me? Temptations Cease breathing The weight of two worlds Rests My hands, my hands I am but a flower in the Rain
