I lost my soul and my mother 4 yrs ago today. Dalilah was brave, gentle, elegant and sweet. Before I met her I thought the only thing I could bring into the universe was pain, suffering and toxicity; that’s what I was made to believe with the childhood I had. I adopted her May 4, […]
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This blog started from a comment on a post a friend made on the Meta Demon… One of my strengths is that I never try to prove anything to my abusers. I just go no contact, more on this later. My greatest failure is that I have to prove it (the abuse) to myself again
I feel like I will never stop trying to explain how deeply self advocacy hurts me. I try to add euphemisms since social media, like the rest of society, criminalizes mental health but ESPECIALLY suicidality at all levels. Whether it’s a gnawing, daily, aching feeling, a stray idea when pain gets heavy, a contemplation because
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I have lost a friendship recently, actually a few in the last year or so. I’m struggling with self isolation while I’m in dire need of support. I have severe trust issues. I don’t know what real intimacy should be or could be. With that I see the thoughts and ideas around “validation” and it
Twenty four years ago my father blamed me for his marriage falling apart. Let me warn you now, this post comes with heavy content warnings of abuse (all types), poverty, war, maybe suicidal ideation and sexual abuse, proceed with caution. A week ago my brain was so swollen I felt my guts churning into a
