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After Helene…

Modified from my #MetaDemon caption… We made it, lost power for a bit this morning. The two clocks in the room show different times so I think it was a fee times and a few flickers. I woke up when I think the microwave was beeping as the power was going in and out. As […]

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Dare to Dream

It’s hard to hope or plan for a future or help anyone when you don’t even have safety past a few days… StillI hopeI tryI dream Dare to dream of a better tomorrow… I’m still in constant need of support to keep my disabled family off the street. I’m exhausted, fighting suicidal ideation while my

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Will it Crash the Site?

Hoping this video I made doesn’t crash the site – the whole thing might get fucked soon cause of some changes to a plugin I use is changing and I have no way to fix it and tbh no idea what the fuck the notice was saying in the email and the jerk who used

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Ibuprofen

Twenty four years ago my father blamed me for his marriage falling apart. Let me warn you now, this post comes with heavy content warnings of abuse (all types), poverty, war, maybe suicidal ideation and sexual abuse, proceed with caution. A week ago my brain was so swollen I felt my guts churning into a

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Pena Pity Pena

Que pena… Que triste… Often I struggle with receiving kindness, often I struggle with trusting kindness, often I struggle to believe I can ask for kindness or compassion… I’m used to pity. Many years it was used against me to fuel the egos of others as I was seen as a charity case. Some say

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